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Happy Chinese New Year!
February 14, 2010

Stuffing myself with bak kwa and spring roll crisps. Looking forward to some chill time,it’s been a crazy time at work.

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Contradictions.
January 5, 2010

Twenty ten. Time is flying faster than I can keep up with. Around this time every year I ask myself the same question…where did all that time go? In twenty ten..I will know exactly where my time will go.I am scared and excited at the same time, this is really my first time working on a project on this scale and level,a project the world is watching,every day I’m terrified that someone will find out I really don’t have a clue what I am doing! Working late nights every day, sacrificing all sort of things just to get the job done for the day…I’ve been asking myself if this will all be worth it? I hope so but really, whatever.

Despite being caught up in a crazy schedule of work for the last year I’ve noticed myself slowly changing internally and shifting focus. Where I used to charge ahead full steam in my work related ambitions, albeit blindly,without a care the kind of carnage that could be left trailing behind my actions, now I take a moment to decide if it is worth it, and am i going to get into trouble?

On some days I’ve decided the best way I could spend my time is to spend my day cooking up a storm, make lovely bentos for my boyfriend, learn to knit things as useless presents for people, and whist away the time reading obscure literature and never burdening my brain with silly ambitions to get ahead in life. My life can simply be still, quiet with easy contentment.I suppose this is what people say when they are ‘mellowing” with age.

But then on other days I am charged, I am delirious from wanderlust, I move fast through the hustling urban crowds without ever looking back, I am a reckless soul who will step on toes to get me where i want to be, and I want a lot of things. Moments like this I am never happy with myself, never good enough and guilty for the days I allow myself to be “mellow”. “Have you given up? What about the dreams you had, what about all the things you wanted to be, the places you wanted to go? Get up and go!”

Contradictions. I suppose this cannot be unique for me…becoming an adult (at whatever age you choose to grow up) sometimes mean learning to let go of dangerous dreams in order to grab hold of a life buoy, a thick dose of reality that bring you safely down to earth. That part may be necessary, but it sucks.

Has it been that long?
January 15, 2009

Hello friend or  maybe a random stranger, I just remembered I still have a wordpress account today, so just checking in.:)

it’s two-0h-0h-NINE! Gosh,my last post was about freshly chopped hair ( which has since been chopped,dyed, retouched,trimmed a couple of time already).. where did all that time go?

To recap, 2008 was another year that went by in a blink.I only really remember working, working,working and I didn’t travel anywhere except to Bangkok, Thailand and maybe a few short trips to Indonesia. Life in a agency tends to do that to u huh, you end up in your own little bubble , filled with other people who like to stay in a office all the time?

My wanderlust is really,really biting at me…I’ll have to make up for it in the new year, I pray for any opportunity to travel.

2009 is likely to be a time to me to make a few bold (and not so bold but necessary)  choices in my life. My boss gave us an “inspirational” peptalk yesterday about bracing for a potentially difficult 2009 both in our working and personal lives, in which we all snickered endlessly, but secretly had to admit it really does make sense. He said in 2009 we will have to start it off with a sprint, by preparing early with everything we want to achieve,not drag our feet by simply  assuming the worst of everything when no effort has even been made to try to make things better. 2009 will be a year for the sprinters who wont give up running to catch up with the rat race no matter how far behind they are. All obstacles, or “boulders”  (deadweights who do not put in the work and hinder the race as a result) will have to be pushed aside to make way.

I have mostly been tiring myself out in recent weeks by sleeping at ridiculous hours and eating too much junk food on the way , so will really be using the upcoming CNY break to muster up my mental “sprint” for the year. Physically, mentally…I just need to be repaired.

Just random fact:  I’ve just devoured the entire twilight series- all 4 books, Twilight, New moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn and one chapter of midnight Sun…in 5 days. hee hee hee. I like the books much better than the movie.

New Hair
October 4, 2008

Chopped off much of my old hair last weekend. I love it…so hassle free and easy.Nowadays, I can jump out out bed and get ready in 15 mins flat!