Flew solo for the first time for studio recording on tuesday,and made several blunders resulting in angry directors,waiting guest performers and frustrated artiste management people…It was such a blur of a day,with me running around the office in my stupid heels (note to self: wear sensible shoes on studio days)like a possessed chicken with its head chopped off.
People were demanding answers,being rude,asking me to hurry up,asking for stuff i dont have and things i have not done before,and my head felt like a pressure cooker,with stress building up with every hurdle.And all that was ringing in my head was ” Im NEW you fucktards,i dont know,and i dont have the answers or the stuff you want from me!”
And then I realised that it didnt matter to people how difficult it was for me,or that im still new,because the only thing that matters was getting the show on the road and on time and no delays or mistakes will be tolerated at all in broadcasting,not by anybody.So I took a deep breath,went in the studio,forced myself to be as assertive as possible and just trudged on until the day was over at 10pm and i dragged myself home for some much needed sleep.
The rest of this week will be filled with events and interviews…I have an afternoon interview with Westlife,who’s in Singapore for a concert,a Calvin Klein fashion event at night,and a weekend interview with this korean boyband called shin hwa which i still have not done research on and have no idea who they are at all.
It is funny that about two weeks ago, having a schedule like that would have thrilled me to bits and much excitement.But right now it really just looks a lot like WORK to me,and i am so,so tired.
(P.S:i need a really good organiser!)